To the disappointed mama

To the disappointed mama-to-be standing with yet another negative PTK (pregnancy test kit) in hand, wondering if she’ll ever get good news…

I see you.

To the brave mama-to-be enduring endless drugs and procedures and needles, holding her breath again and willing this cycle to stick…

I see you.

To the heartbroken, grieving mama crying over the blood stains on the bathroom floor…

I see you.

To the frustrated and fed up mama wondering how she can get through another baby shower or family gathering or church service faking a smile…

I see you.

And to the mama left disappointed by another bump in the long road towards adoption…

I also see you too.

I know how it feels to face that deep longing in your heart.

I feel your desperate pain.

And whilst I don’t have any easy answers or solutions for offer, I simply want to encourage you that you are seen in your struggles and that you are not alone today.

So I have written this blog for you.

You are brave, you are courageous, and so much stronger than you know.

I know that most of the time you probably look like you’re doing okay, and you’ll be managing to keep it together for everyone else around you; for your family, for your work colleagues, and for the sake of all of your other friends who are already becoming mums…

But I also want to remind you that sometimes it’s okay not to be okay with what you’re going through.

There is grace for you today.

There is grace to be okay, but also grace not to be okay.