‘As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts’
Isaiah 55: 9
Someone wise once told me that a sign of Christian maturity is being okay with not having all the answers and trusting anyway…
Does that sound a bit like having blind faith? Maybe so, but it really isn’t.
It’s more about zooming out and seeing things with a different perspective, and seeing things with a different lens.
It’s about realising that God’s viewpoint is far greater than ours.
And sometimes that means being able to embrace paradox and hold two seemingly incompatible truths simultaneously in hand.
He is both a God of grace and of judgement, a God of anger and of love.
He’s a God who predestines us, but also offers us free choice.
He is completely good, but also allows evil things to happen.
He knows each of us intimately, but He exists outside of time and space.
He is the God who heals, but He sometimes chooses to leave us in sickness or pain.
He is one, but He is also three. He is beyond time, but working through all time. He is the beginning and the end.
The truth is that there are so many things about this journey of faith that don’t make much sense to me. Even after all these years…
And I know that lots of people use this as an excuse to reject the entire concept of God. Because how can you believe in a God that you can’t understand or explain with human logic, science or rationale?
But I feel kind of differently to this… Because who wants a God who is small enough to fully understand and explain away with my human mind?
And okay, I am not the most scientifically wired person I admit, but these days I am actually perfectly okay with living with these unexplained tensions and with not having all the answers.
Because I would prefer to put my trust in a God who is too big to understand, explain, prove, than one who fits into my imagination and understanding.
There are so many unanswered questions within this life of faith; but the truth is that there are equally as many unanswered questions in unbelief as well and I know which one offers me more hope.
Can I fully resolve all the questions I have about where God is in the midst of my struggles? No.
The truth is that we were never meant to have all the answers, because He is God and we are not.